It’s 3:44 am Thursday morning. I wanted to write on my blog after sitting wrestling with stress most of the night. I have allot going through my mind lately. I have been struggling with this blog for some time. If you read it you will know, including this week, that from time to time I feel like shutting the whole thing down. I think because the truth is I never really intended for my blog to become so controlled and superficial.
It really was to log my life here in Toronto but really I wanted it to be much more than that but I don’t think I have been truly brave. Don’t get me wrong, I think I have had some moments of clarity but it really is difficult to write knowing anyone can read it. Well then why do it I suppose you could ask. Well I guess it doesn’t really matter why as long as I don’t make a mockery of my own life.
I’m tired of writing about stuff that, to be honest, feels kind of surface to me. I like what I have written about but I think I can do better than this. Not for anyone but just for me. I mean is it really all that important whether I got perfect service at some stupid pub?
Over the past four years I have changed and it may be time my blog change with me. I may not be Mr. Funny all the time. I may change my bitter rants to something a bit more thought provoking. I may lose some readers or maybe I won’t but one thing is for sure I have spent way to many years losing me and it may be time to dig a little deeper.
It’s scary being authentic. Maybe no one will like me? Maybe however, I will learn to like me. It’s really been a thousand years since I recognized “The Man in the Mirror” Please let me introduce myself. I am simply Bruce. And it’s really nice to meet you……
Let the real story of me, begin….